Looking for

what is this that we seek?
we strive and dive hoping for its reach
we peddle we paddle fro and to
hoping hoping this would be true
this will be the last
this will be it
finally rest will be mine
how long I’ve waited
how love I’ve search
and it was twice as hard
because I was trying so hard to make it not seem so
how I boasted of my accomplishment in my heart
I did a so sneaky say “look at me ..look at me..see?”

then it happened…it happened…
that which I sought so feverishly
was not what I hoped it be
short lived
based on… I don’t know
temporary and very so
what will you give me?
repay what I gave in
you cant
for you are nothing holding the power of being
keeping in mind this what I have is true and deep
everlasting otherwise I wouldn’t have told you

I feel forever in my heart and only One who is forever can hold what I have to give
healing and rest is what I need
for this stony  path has caused me to fall

whispers
whispers to me call
You are near not far at all
so gentle and warm
in all my seeking tis I who was sought
in all my seeking I could not see Who sought

-Christopher Cisneros-Smith